‘Home’
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Summary:
Coda to ‘Endgame’. 23 years after voyager’s return, Tom reminisces about
their return and how his daughter
turned out.
But
looking back at all those years with him following our miracle of a return trip,
I can’t help but thank whatever higher power that we were able to make peace
in our lifetimes. B’elanna still
hasn‘t been able to heal all wounds between her and her parents.
I can’t honestly say that she was ever really able to forgive her
father, there was always tension when they were around each other and the
bitterness and harshness of their arguments were soul-crushing at times.
But she still loved him, through all of it and cried in my arms all night
when he passed away. Now, she says
that she can feel both of her parents with her, she still talks to them, lets
herself remember them, still sees them in her dreams.
Family.
Yes, my father and mother and sisters and everyone else part of the Paris
bunch will always be in my heart, will always be family.
But what I had on Voyager, what I shared with my crewmates, it’s a
special bond that remains unbroken to this day.
When I revisit the old ship, now a shell for replicas and memories, as I
touch the old bulkheads, I can close my eyes and...for a moment...it’s 23
years ago, I’m just on my way to the messhall for one of Neelix’s newest
concoctions. I see familiar faces nodding to me as they pass by.
I hear the cheerful banter of the diners and the warmth of emanating from
the galley. The ship was warm.
The ship was home.
It was
never Voyager itself really, but the crew.
It was never easy, all alone out there.
We had no choice but to turn to each other. It’s rare that a starship crew gets so close, even rarer
when the crew is made up of people who hate each other.
But after a while, the lines between maquis and Starfleet, shipmates and
friends were blurred and ultimately disappeared leaving a bittersweet nostalgia
in their wake. After a while, your
co-workers become your partners, your subordinates, your friends.
Loyalty and honour are instilled in every person and the closeness is
unbelievable. That was my home, it
always will be my true home.
That was
the hardest thing for all of us, I think. We’d
gotten so intent on getting home that we hadn’t thought beyond that.
We hadn’t realized that the homecoming would also have to mean goodbye.
So many tears were shed that day. Our
friends and family from across the Alpha Quadrant came to greet us, we were all
held by someone dear who’d we’d thought would be lost for a long time to
come. That was the only time I ever
remember the Admiral crying.
He was
one of the first to greet the senior staff at the launching pad, along with many
other Starfleet officials. They
shook our hands, gave us our commendations and medals. Somehow, I’d ended up at the end of the line as had dad.
He came up to me and we faced each other rigidly for a few seconds,
spectators looking on worriedly. I
was still in shock from the preceding events and couldn’t handle the look in
his eyes. After a few moments, my composure broke and it all came down
on me suddenly. We were home, it
was all over, it was all just beginning. The
next thing I remember is being pulled into a pair of strong arms, towards a man
crying just as hard as I was.
According
to Starfleet regulation, the following days were supposed to be filled with
debriefings and many other standard procedures. Red tape’s a bitch, even in the 24th century.
But, given the circumstances, it was postponed until the next day.
I spent most of that first day home in Sickbay, enjoying my new family.
I can
still remember the Admiral’s face as he saw Miral for the first time.
My beautiful daughter washed all hardness from his face the instant she
was shown to him. He looked so much younger right then. He told me once that the sight of me holding my wife, our
daughter in her arms, had awakened a warmth in him he’d thought dead long ago.
That’s my girl, my miracle-worker.
Conceived against all odds, born between quadrants during a borg attack,
helping her old dad win the betting pool...she screamed her little lungs out for
all they were worth all the next day and night.
She definitely has Klingon in her. She
was going to be a handful, I could tell. As
beautiful as her mother, vibrant as her captain, stubborn as her father, strong,
fiery...B’elanna had once been afraid I’d leave her because living with two
Klingons would be a challenge. The
truth is, I wouldn’t exchange those two for anything in the world.
They’re precious, they’re all that matters.
She
considers herself a member of the original Voyager crew even if she was only on
the ship for a few moments. A very
spiritual young lady, she believes that she is not only a child of her parents
but of the entire crew. That each
loving presence contributed to her being and Voyager’s spirit would live on in
our family. I think she’s gone on
one vision quest too many. That was
my response when she told me. She
and her mother responded by giving me simultaneous whacks on the shoulders.
B’elanna
was so proud of Miral when our baby graduated from Starfleet Academy.
At the top of her class and ambitious as hell, our girl found herself a
place on a starship almost right away, all on her own.
They never cry, either of them, but I could tell both mother and daughter
wanted to the day Miral left on her first mission.
Hugs and gentle words were exchanged between the three of us and, as she
waved goodbye from the airlock, I experienced the same feeling I’d gotten when
Voyager had arrived home. It was an
end and a beginning and my pride and joy was faced with a numb pain in my
stomach. I realized only then that
she wasn’t my baby anymore.
I’m
glad it hit me then instead of now because I doubt that she would’ve liked to
see her old man have a fit during her engagement party. It really is a great celebration, a lot of the old crew are
hear along with some of her current crewmates and old friends from the Academy.
All of the Paris family is here as well as a few important Starfleet
officers. She’s only an
ensign and has already managed to charm her way up the Federation hierarchy.
She gets it from her father.
B’elanna
went to get some punch and everyone else is mingling so I’m alone in a corner
for now, free to observe my little miracle from my quiet corner.
She’s grown up to be a beautiful lady.
She’s always had this life inside of her that has made her so pleasant
to be around. Her presence just
makes everyone instantly comfortable and content.
In a few minutes, she has everyone laughing and talking like they were
old friends. She’ll make a great
captain someday. She’s standing
in the center of the room next to her fiance, a very charming Betazoid (of
course, not nearly good enough for her but she’d break my legs if I objected.
Besides, he makes her happy) I never would’ve have expected Miral to
marry a Betazoid. She may be three
parts human but has always been very close to her Klingon heritage, taking an
immediate interest in the language, performing all the rituals, upholding all
the rules and principles and somehow managing to integrate it all into her
everyday life. She’s not perfect
but I have to keep reminding myself of that.
Anyway,
this should be a very interesting union. She’s
a very passionate person and Zean’s sensitive, wise beyond his years.
She’s not very patient and he’s going to be picking up her emotions
constantly. But if anyone can make it work, my baby can.
There’s
surrounded by friends, chatting happily. But
she stands out, she’s by far the most radiant person here, besides her mother
of course. She’s spotted me
somehow, seeing me through the shadows of my private corner.
Her lips turn up in a smirk and she makes her way over to me.
She puts her arms around me and gives me a kiss on the cheek.
-"Come
dance with me daddy." She
whispers in my ear. My heart skips
a beat, she hasn’t called me daddy since she was a little girl.
-"But
there’s no music, baby." I
chuckle.
Her
smile grows as she pulls me closer and starts swaying to an imaginary beat.
I haven’t called her baby in a long time.
-"I
still am, you know. In my
heart." she assures me.
-"I
know." I sigh.
She’s so precious.
We sway
slightly again and all eyes are on us, smiling tenderly at us.
I look up to see my wife by the buffet, her arms crossed in her classic
stance, her smirk fixed on her face, her eyes conveying more love than I’ve
ever known in any other woman. I
smile at her, the same one I gave her when we were first dating.
She blushes and chuckles slightly. As
I feel the warmth of my wife’s look on me, the warmth of my daughter’s
breath on my neck, the presence of my family around us, I know I’m home.